Sitting drinking some green tea on my birthday and looking back on the 22 years of my life has left me pretty much just in awe. In awe that I have gotten to experience all that I have. Gracious that God has given me the friends, family, and life that I have. It is indeed crazy how much my life has changed over the years and how much I have changed and still want to change. I feel like I have only just begun to scratch the surface of who God is and who he wants me to become. Anyways I recently read Donald Miller's Through Painted Deserts and thought I would share a little blurb from it that stuck out at me today.
Everybody has to change like the seasons, they have to or they die. The seasons remind me that I must keep changing, and I want to change because it is God's way. All my life I have been changing. I changed from a baby to a child, from soft toys to play daggers. I changed from a teenager to drive a car, into a worker to spend some money. I will change into a husband to love a woman, into a father to love a child, change houses to be near water, and again so we are near mountains, and again so we are near friends. Like a garden fed by four seasons, everyone has to change or they expire.
Everybody has to leave, everybody has to leave their home and come back so they can love it again for all new reasons.
I want to keep my soul fertile for the changes, so things keep getting born in me, so things keep dying when its time for things to die. I want to keep walking away from the person I was a moment ago, because a mind was made to figure things out, not to read the same page recurrently.
Only the good stories have the characters different at the end than they were at the beginning.
22 years seems like a mighty long time to me. Its grace alone that I have gotten to live them as I have, and it will be grace alone if i get to even see another year. God has been incredibly kind to me. I pray that he continues to change and grow me.